fuck the press.

huh. i seriously been thinking about how the press aka news people have been always pushing for the stupidest things, and oddly get enough power to bend that truth and make people believe what they have written. i fucking hate that man. their is one topic that i don’t truly give a fuck about but oddly it instates fear into everyone. it has to do with virtual sex that involves so called child avatars. sky news seems to think that this kind of behavior is wrong, and wrote a report and video about how sick and disturbing it is. i do not find this act of synthetic ageplay to be sick or disturbing at all. if we are to outlive our fantasies in a virtual world we should have the freedom to do what we want, and not have some fucked up news freak going off on us, saying that it could lead up to a real crime, which i find kind of stupid and insane. they wrote two reports on it, expressing their deepest disgust for acts like this. i think this is the stuff that makes people scream, and when they hear it they want to kill it really fast and not care about the outcome. the outcomes is that the places that has virtual synthetic sex would be forced to shut down. i don’t get why this has to be such a big hassle. the word oddly seems to embark on dangerous ground, and would do anything it can to make the press or whoever reported it look good. i hate it when people have to save their own asses or run fucking scared to believe that it’s going to affect them. if the business it creates is massive i think it should be accepted and not be considered taboo in a world where synthetic lust is thought as of being real.

it is just a fantasy the most people this day and age think of but are too ashamed to do or think about it, in fear of getting arrested or beat the fuck up. if it is virtual i truly do not have a problem with it. it doesn’t do any harm to anyone, and in a world where sexual repression is key is thanks to most religions views that sexuality is harmful and wrong and should only be done with so and so, is kind of cliche now that you think of it. we are pure sexual beings and we will basically fuck anything that gives a flirt or a notion that we want to mate. and religion, morals, press, government and all that shit has said that anything done to a person under the so called consent factor is evil. the word is also a panic button for people that don’t understand the nature of it and go nuts, and try to take down the source of that place. they always scream think of the kids. i don’t think anyone including the press should tell us how to act or think, as we will soon take them down and be free radicals.

lying seems to be a key source when it comes to stuff like this. i would prefer that the press would leave the subject alone and possibly go alright, it’s virtual so i’m not gonna care what’s happening here. if it doesn’t go in rl it shouldnt be a problem.

i hate the press has so much power over us and the world, that a single word of anything bad will instate shock into community. i seriously do not get why everyone has to believe what these liars are saying to people, just so we will either read it or sent a complaint to have it removed. if we are told to have freedom of speech and whatever. we should have the right to talk to press on and see how long it takes before they crack and realize that the press is either full of shit or complete liars. the press seem to rule the entire world right now. i feel that the press isn’t important at all. if some fuck from the press began to write a story about the film i made and how the subject matter would create chaos i would say cool. i would then reshoot some more footage to make it even more insane to piss off that journalist. i’m not gonna comply to the persons demand. if i have upset a member of the press by making a movie, a picture or whatever i’m gonna be so glad i did that, as i struck a nerve in their psyche. we need to fight back 10 times worse and not care what they have to say.

half the world is brainwashed anyway so their gonna completely disregard it anyway so blah. i am truly not offended, feel sickened by anything in the rl world accept for press that make lies on something so minor that it makes the creators of a videogame go nuts, and cover themselves up and be pg. the press are not important at all.

ok i am done rambling in a circle as it’s continuing to make no sense like 2 pages up, so i don’t care what people think about the subject. i don’t care that it bothers you in the slightest. this isn’t your fight. just remember that i will be watching your ass all the time. so smiles to my middle finger bitches.

serverus out.

i am going insane

I am seriously going insane now, their is absolutely nothing to do anymore. i am insanely bored right now and have nothing to remotely do, it’s like reality is loosing it’s mind on the world around me. i took my pc in on monday and it is taking forever for those assholes to upgrade it to what i am asking for, and the days that i dont have it are the days i literally just loose my mind, and have nothing to do but play my 360 and goof off for unknown reasons. having a no computer and just a laptop an apple laptop fucking sucks, as their not capable of playing bloody videogames. i just got modern warfare 2 and dragon age origins on the pc, and thanks to those idiots i cannot play it till possibly bloody monday, and that is 1 day before left 4 dead 12 comes out. i am feeling like i wanna get destructive and cause utter chaos in the world of sl and the real world. i may have too much time on my hands, but being away from my baby can be hectic to my schedule. i would really like my pc to be back tomorrow but it probably wont be here by then either. i have been going off at my friends for some because i need some form of entertainment to get based this excrusciating boredom.

i do love to read books for hrs on end most of the time, but lately i just have been addicted to this shite videogame called sl. i been on this horrid game for over 3 yrs coming this weekend, and their is nothing left to do in it beside have sex and hang with my friends and be insanely stupid. i have been creating some movies lately and have been trying to make some movies happen, but we are editing this one right now. is their anyone out their, is their anyone paying attention in the world of nothingness? if you are why the fuck am i wasting my life on a game that doesn’t even give shite back to the community and create dramatic wars just so they can be on some other cunts side. i just don’t bloody get it. i know you have issues people but it doesn’t give you the right to be cocks about it, and create this anarchy. only i can do that, as i am good at fighting and other shite like that. sometimes i just want you guys to leave me alone, as i feel that i don’t belong in this world called sl or in rl, as i can’t generally be accepted by most. they claim i am mean, uncool or offensive when the fact is i am not… . they oddly decide to label me as this incessant person that doesn’t know how to keep his cool in a randomly weird argument technically about past issues or some shit like that. my humor can be from fighting, but it’s a shame that these people do not get it, or have to proclaim that i am attacking them when it’s their own idiotic consciousness that is creating this so called attacking of them. they have this inserts built in that auto detect what is attacking them, and what isn’t. i don’t get why people always claim i am attacking them when i am just fucking around trying to make myself laugh and possibly them. normalcy seems to reign king in sl. if your not in the so called in crowd where you have to be the same, don’t tread on dangerous ground and have no traits or character in the way that they express themselves. i do not know why i stay in an extremely boring game to begin with.

i know i have many friends in sl that always back me up when i am in some sort of chaotic moment but that is slowly dying for me, as their is clearly nothing left for me to do anymore. i love most of the people i talk to but they talk less and less to me now thanks to the fact that they got boyfriends or girlfriends. they oddly seem to think that you have to give them more attention then me and forget i exist. i hate it when i meet a close friend, and they get a new partner and they care and talk to that person and forget that i am in their lives too and just as important. i love to hang out with them, but when i mic them they seem to always talk over me and i gotta tell them to shut the fuck up before i can get a word across. they only care about that one person and don’t care about me as much anymore, and when they do that it slowly drives me away from their closeness and trust. the more they ignore me and talk less of me the more i’m gonna push myself away from them and talk in one word answers. i miss the people that i talk to back in the day but they claim their either busy in rl or hanging our with those things they call boyfriends and girlfriends it’s just pathetic to listen to. i have become insanely grouchy to people that ignore me and pay 0 attention to me. i just want to be noticed again like the old times, when everything was crazy and they go and change on me. that is not cool.

i love you guys but i need sometime alone or someone to actually be their for me. my girl in sl isn’t truly interested in me anymore as she’s hardly on and goes afk half the fucking time it’s unfair to me and watching that thing.

Serverus out.

stressing.

well i have been stressing hard the last couple of days. it is really bugging me inside,emotions wise. i am making a movie this sunday afternoon and it’s the first time i have made a film in about a year or two, and this is the first time i will ever be making a movie myself. my full direction with the crew, photographer and the food getter guy. so this is gonna be hard for me to grasp for the fact that i might fail. like i will do really good i bet from my vivid imagination but from my previous directoral debut about suicide was directed by me, but with my mom being the one that kills herself off, but made her go in less then 38 seconds when i have like 2 mins of film to deal with, and that pretty much fucked up my experience. then i made some films with my friend jeff and was the grunt in the background observing and helping. it feels nice to get into the field that i love and someone actually forcing me to get off my ass and shoot some coool homemade, no budget movies with some more originality then what the hollywood poopers have to work with.

i am a very easy going guy and easy to work with if i am not frustrated to the core from telling people what to do or from the insanity i cause people inside life for no reason at all. along with that the shoot will also incorperate a documentary about me making the film and showing the actors what to do in the film, and me get very vocal with the camera to tell them how i feel about them in a certain way. i looked at some of the footage about me and how i expressed myself but i couldn’t get over the fact that i looked so fucking fat, ugly and sort of tiredish looking i guess with a hint of excitement. my friend carmello was like ” i never seen him so focused” and i had a little laugh when i began to act like a little kid and how they act over crayons and stuff like that looool.

yes i do have a weird sense of humor and sometimes i dont know makes people think i am being a nutter when i am fooling around, but my friend got it, but my friend was like “i haven’t seen that in a long time” and ” i dont know about that when i said it was funny but when he said i made it up he was like ” oh them that is pretty funny” he has previously worked with me in other films, and acted in films with him, and also teached me the ways of lights, gels and scrims to help make different lighting different colors for the background. it was pretty interesting for what he told me 3 years ago.

in the end i hope that this movie comes out good for me and gets to some festivals, but if it doesn’t turn up the way i would expect it too i’m just gonna put the documentary on youtube and see how it goes from their. i think it will turn out ok after we edit it but sometimes not many people are ready for seeing their work as it can sometimes prove otherwise at their talent. look at woody allen.

my brother jordy got on mr arse to my friend jeff about how it’s great for me to get off my arse again and do something instead of be lazy. i love the guy loool, even if i accidently give him stress all the bloody time or once and awhile as i dont listen to him too often but i do often try. does the mighty safety dance to hope the shoot will be fucking amazing to do.

goodbye brother.

Hello Sacha i think it’s time we cut an end to our brotherhood you have done nothing but fuck up everything that i have given into you.  yeah how does it feel to have someone that u cared about to go away from your fucking pathetic ass, your not a very nice person at all. i used to believe that you were the one for me and the one that had stuff in common with a random and insane person like me, but in the end you turned out to be nothing but a queen, a drama llama nothing of utter importance to me, and it’s a shame that you have to live your live as a soulless cunt that you are.  i showed you my heart, you showed me yours, but as the weeks went on your fucking sad attempts to get your asshole boyfriend, back when he did nothing but fuck up our friendship and a bond that i created  to you, but know you had to throw that  all out the window and go back to him each and every time. you would always bitch and moan that he loved you, but in the end he didn’t give to fucks about you but you still went back to him, even when it hurt me to no end. you didn’t even truly care what was going threw my mind. all you did was spend time with that freak you call a man. i cant believe that you would throw away your own brother the one that helped you threw some harsh times in sl. you never truly gave a fuck about it did you, as you got rid of me just like that fucker asked you too. your love and devotion to him is nothing but mentalized nothingness.  your a person that doesn’t know what he fucking wants in his life, and go around destroying it for others in your wake, not caring who gets his the hardest. you have blew all the chances, trust and my love to the limit and i cant stand to see myself in this hurt, upset and tenderness that i have gotten from your chaotic and destructive ways. did you ever care about me you fuck? well from what you have showed me you had never given me anything back but sex, randomness that is all you gave me, and you threw it all away just for some happiness in your fucking life. well i hope your happy that you fucked me over and put matsui into tears when you pulled that little stunt back when you tried to kill yourself over some boy and man. yea killing yourself just because your daddy said no. that is a sad, moronic, pathetic thing to do yourself just because your little daddy sad no, awww poor baby did daddy say no?  you have to be the most saddest person in the world to kill yourself over one boy named samirr or whatever his real name was. in the end you will be alone, know one to lean on, know one to talk to. in fact know one even cares about your existance in life. yeah your that sad of a person to think taht anyone could love you half as good as you. yeah your basically just love you and only you, and anyone that gets in your way of you is either thrown away or just basically not spoken too.

you don’t even know the honor of true loyalty to a friend or to a brother. you have just shown me  that you have know attempt of caring about anyone anymore.  do you know where knifes come from bro hmm? i guess not eh? but if you do happen to find a large knife with your name on it, i hope you know what to do with it instead of crying at me with your drama inducing ways. i do not care about you, i do not want to see you and if i ever see you around me again, you will pray to god that you have used that knife on a certain part of your body. oh right your too fucked up,mental and stupid to even realize what to do with it. you also have a thing of using people for your sexualized needs and nothing more. yea i guess sex is all you know, simply for the fact that you actually were sexually abused as a boy, but is so afraid to admit it happened, that you use the excuse that your family never loves you or treats you like shit, when in fact it’s you that’s the problem and not them. my good friend lars tried to save you from that life and style, but know you just didn’t truly care about him anymore or just used him as a sexual slave then an actual boyfriend or for that matter a partner. he literally saved your life in real life, and what thanks does he get? oh right a divorce so you can go and fuck some 18yr old hermathradite.  yea that isn’t the true value of giving something back to someone that really did care about you, and in the end you just used him as bate,got close to him to get back at me or whoever was bugging you at the time out of your life.  you know if you continue the path that you are even if you are in your 20’s nothing will happen to you really, you’ll just die a whore and probly you’d be ugly by the time you were 30 anyway, because u’d probly be beaten so bad that your face and body would need stitches and you wouldn’t liked to be seen.

in the end i hope your fucking happen for what you did to everyone that truly put love into your heart, and  gave you everything that you asked for and you still used them as cattle and didn’t know what you wanted from them. they in return hate you more then you can ever realize or hope to expect from them. i truly don’t give a fuck anymore. this was your fault to begin with. if you did truly have a sweet heart like you showed me, why are you now out of second life where i knew you’d end up after everyone that was their threw you away because of how you treated them and an act of cowardice that was so low, that it got you nowhere but the same place as before alone with know one to even hold you hand in the suicide watch area.  you were probably crying in their and you were so afraid to even admit it. just because you are hot in real life, like sex and other shite like that doesn’t give you the right to through me away like some useless garbage. my closest brother and friends were right about you. your nothing but a drama queen that needs to be stayed away from, and have know contact with the outside world. they were protecting me from scum fucking anal beavers like you away from me, but i was too much lusted after you that i forgot how bad it would get me. i hope you rot in an old abandoned psychoward where you scream everyday, and know one ever comes to say hello, accept when they wanna put a knife in your butt or needle in your butt or wherever they put it, shall saw away at it, just to calm you down and realize that your still alive and suffering in a place where only the insane should be. goodbye forever you hateful motherfucker. you belong to nothingness and shall remain so.

movie idea randomness. more will come

idea of movie where camping couple go into the middle of the woods in a small town, and mysterious figure begins to fuck around with the, making them feel unease every single bit of the way, as they become eradic and unpredictable. one suspects people form the forest trying to get reaction, but ignore it, but distrations become insanely worse, such as knives in tent, or simplly shaking the tent, and toying with them by stealing their belongings. and one days girl or boy gets kidnapped and girl or guy tries to find them as traps are very visable, such as barbed wire traps that entangles you in it and shreads you to pieces when you reach the end but possible still alive, bear traps, holes with spikes or stuff in them, tree’s. been done before, but can try ot make different.

possibly movie idea where women or guy is trapped in deep dug out hole, and always screams for help, and if someone tries to help her, the oddly get killed in odd ways if they try to safe her life, or killer stalks them or uses them as bait by tying them down to things and trying to get other to come.

love is fucked up.

So i met this boy on sl awhile back named ryuuzaki kanto and i met him when i was a vampire, and friend of samirr magic at the time. samirr oddly thought i was an asshole with know manners and a slut and stuff like that, but that was complete bullshit to begin with as it was an excuse to make this boy fucking avoid me, so instead of dating me the one that made him happy in sl, ended up taking  samirr instead of me. when i was hanging with ryuu all i did was show him some from and flirt him, and the next day i find out he has a boyfriend, being the one that told him the fucking lies and shit like that. that was unfair to me, but  i became the fuckers brother for a bit, but my love for this boy was so intense that it sort of really fucking bugged me like no other person could. so i flirt the kid again and all of a sudden samirr IM’s me on claims of me trying to steal his boyfriend away when in fact it was a bit more then that. i think it was the fact that he knew deep inside that i loved him and he just couldnt take it so he basically became a jealous little shit. on that day he got rid of me as a friend. i tried to reason with him but he became insanely irrational and ejected me from his groups in  a fit of fucking anger. he was like serv i’m done with you, that type of getting rid of you bs, but a couple days later i heard from ryuu that he did want to forgive me but never did, but for some fucking reason he never logged the fuck for almost two bloody weeks but i was still seriously hurt  when it happened. i was upset, cried for a bit,felt used. actually it was so bad that my parents kept asking me what was wrong, and  i couldn’t explain it to them or tell the it was over a boy as their salvation army, but that doesnt give him the right to log of for 2 or 3 fucking weeks without notifying us if something was wrong. so in the time that he is away, i begin to fall close and closer to ryuu and his alt, and we have fun everyday and night, we were basically dating behind his back, but i loved that boy like their was know other, he was seriously special to me and i would just do anything for that kid. he actually made me insanely insanely happy in sl and when i was around him. we spent every waking hr with each other just goofing off, having fun and just  laughing and other things like that. i felt like i met my other half in the world as i am not the type that falls in love with many boys in sl, as their the type that either turn me off or are just not my style. ryuu told me he loved me, and we were basically inseperable for almost 3 weeks. i later found out that he was insanely sick with a flu called pheffer where you cant even move or walk 3 feet without feeling dizzy.i went threw that when i was 21 in rl and it fucking sucked beyond shit. for some odd reason someone emails samirr that i have been cheating on him, but i dont get how it’s my problem if he never told us he was sick and relied on others to tell us he was and not a word from him. so when he finds out he ejects both of us from his lives and only forgives ryuu only and not me, and the only way he’d take ryuu back would be to get rid of me and ban me from his live completly. 

that was mean,cold and hateful of samirr to think that, but i too this day love the boy deeply and i sometimes get teary eyed when i see him with other people cuddling him. oddly 1 week in his bf oddly forgives me on an alt, and all seems well but inside i new something was up, as he hardly talked to me and ryuu’s alt and me never spoke to each other for over a month, and if i tried to talk he would just give me silence and not an ounce of love back from him. one day i say to him i love you as a broness and something elseness and you wanna see my hammer? oddly samirr’s alt thought i was having  a flirt with ryuu when in fact i was not, it ment i loved ryuu as a special person in my life that know one in the world could of made me connect with, and he again ejects me from his lift by argueing with ryuu’s alts about what he feels and the alt removes me and mutes me from his list on sl and that pisses me off, so i IM romy what is wrong and he goes on about how i should stay away from people. i was like wtf is wrong with you. but later that night ryuu fucking IM’s me on msn and we have an insanely heated arguments about it, as he says he still loves me but it’s hard for him. the whole bf comes first bs. i didnt mean to argue with him but i loved him too much to say goodbye to a specal person like that in my life, but i did it. i just loose control when i am hurt or in a heated arguments. i hate sadness in my eyes from it all. it was insanely stupid and irrational for the alts and me to get involved but in the end i lost friends, jackblack fields someone i cared about one time, samirr and his alt and almost julien but when i was right that he never loved him and was more of a power and control issue i got him back as  a friend  and brother, but i am sort of upset at ryuu that he has a new bf and didn’t come back to date me, as i was the one that loved him to know end and never once gave up on the boy. i also lost theodore ducasse over stupid shit. i will always love ryuu till the day i die as he is that important to me in my life right now, even if he will never belong to me, a love like this never goes away, even if he is dating a boy with an attitude that oddly does it to do it and no other  reason then to just piss me off. i am allowed to be me in sl and acting as i wish, i wont act serious or grow up and not act kid like, but to this boy it oddly seems to make him a little cranky when i refuse to acting to his ways. the emotions  i felt were hurt, regret, sad sad eyes and upset face, crying,stress, wanting to quit and argue with everyone,became more quiet. the more i get hurt the more i get quiet. i like to keep people close to my heart but if they continue to do this i will always back away from them. not to many know of my personality in sl they just think of me as a dangerous rebel that is out to get them but wont even try to get to know someone that is more different then most people in the videogame. i love you ryuu you will always have a special place in my secret and special heart. i hope to see you in my heart again.

Religion will kill us all.

i’ve come to the conclusion that religion is a lie. it may seem like a stupid attempt at writing a blog but it does have some significance to being fake and not real. it was basically man made in the late centuries and were told that this guy named god did this, this and this to make them feel something i guess. i find that being programmed by religion to be told what you believe, what you find immorally wrong are just programed into your mind by the way of organized religion. like when we are born what we parents are taught by their parents are taught to their kids on what to do and believe in, and get offended if a person goes in and breaks that agenda or the part of the societal norm. i don’t believe in the societal norm like society puts me in because i want to believe in what i want and not be programed by a person that preaches his daily bullshit about how if we don’t follow gods words or the way of god, you will go down to a firey place and he loves you. that sounds to be outright lunacy and not the way of god, because the church basically says to your lying face that god loves each and everyone of you, and doesn’t discriminate against anyone. i find this excuse to be very unsatisfactory to my beliefs in this ever changing world of lies and damnation if your not in the place of gods word. if god claims that he doesn’t discriminate against  you, please explain to me why the belief of homosexuality is wrong in the eyes of him, his beliefs and against gods word? by saying this is proves we are told by someone holding a book saying that marriage is between a man and women and that homosexuality is abnormal and you shouldn’t do or associate with a gay man in risk of going to hell, for going against his word. this really explains the hatred towards gays in this  world. why would a religion bluntly lie to you about how god is the greatest of power in the earth, but for some reasons frowns upon it. if the saying is write and that god truly died for our sins that being gay, bisexual or whatever the fuck you call it in your life, shouldn’t be a matter of what people say or believe. he died for our sins so if we do things that are wrong we shouldn’t be told that being gay or not should be anyones business to begin with. if he died for us being whatever lifestyle you choose really shouldn’t matter to anyone or anything. but because of large man made religions they are told  that if your gay your going to hell, it is preached in every single religion known to man. not a 1 accept buddhism is accepting of all people, but outside of that people are afraid of gays because of how society that is run rampant on religion and also dependent on religion, and are also brainwashed by that religion to be told what to think in the world.  

i would really like to belief the views of people that try to tell you the ways,laws and words of god, but how much of what he says is actually true, their is know known relevance of his existence. we are given lines upon lines of how great this person once was a long time ago, and they go on and on how this so called man was purely genuine and kinds, and could accept anyone for who they were and not be so judgemental about their ethnics. their are things in the bible that don’t make any sense at all, and is mainly looking like some sort of epic fantasy novel. we don’t know much about jesus or who he is. their is so very little about his life, and as years passed new and new stuff was added to make you think that his father god would relenquish the sinners of your planet and plant the new saviors of the world, to bring sin away and create a new form of peace. their have been so many wars on religion, that it’s sad to say if this man or other forms of him in different countries is true. if he is loving and in fact caring of all people their wouldn’t be so much hatred in this world. from my perspective i find the earth and it’s inhabitants to be an act of darkness, hatred and a way to force feed you false propaganda unto you. this leads to the destroying of  our species in virus like astrocities. every day when i listen to the news is that this man has been killed, this family has been killed or how this gay man was killed for the sake of him being that, proves to me that jesus died on the cross for no reason at all but in an act of fear rather the fact of him dying for us, in form of sin. jesus if he was real must of been a very different kind of man such as his other incantations of his other forbidden states passed from other biblical facts. even if i’m writing this people are basically going to try to prove i am wrong by slurring biblical terms to me about how he can be real,and can find love for you, help you get over your daily lives. i find being preached at by a someone that claims that god knows him, and that he’s all around us, must prove something to the way of falseness, because from what i’ve seen in miracles have been very minimal or of nothingness. if god or jesus truly cared he would fly down from the heavens and help us or give me a sign of  his real existence in either spiritual form. if god or jesus cared about me or people around me, he would of saved my sister from her death, but in fact let her die, and go to a supposedly better place to be, and not be with suffering, as she is prayed to on her death bed, by a man holding  a proclaiming that if she did in fact sin she will go to a fiery  place for what she’s done or heaven is she was a nice little angel that didn’t sin. this again proves that god died for our sins for nothing, because this sounds of what was being said at a funeral generalates that he isn’t accepting of all sinners. if he truly died he would let all of us go to heaven like my sister did. the hard parts of a death of a loved one is forgiving god for him taking them away from their families that they once shared a true bond to. letting go can be disastrous  for a parents to speak about because the love is so deep inside that it will never truly be broken. my parents are such as my mother are very religious and believing in god that you can’t tell them anything that will revert them to not thinking god is real. i sometimes begin to believe that god is us, and because man is so evil we are condemning ourself into our own personal hell threw, war, hate, famine,  predjdice, media control,governmental lying, told how to act and behave and how to become this false entity of yourself where a polite lie can get you anywhere and the truth can get you homeless. we are slowly becoming what god doesn’t want us to be, and that is becoming inevitable in us. the fall of mankind is coming to an end soon, and their is nothing we can do to stop it, because we simply don’t care anymore or about anything, to be saved from the world of sin, hatred and the destruction of the earth.  we have chosen our own graves and we will continue to go the shell of a bullet and eject like a casing from impact. sometimes i question why I’m alive in this world, and why i shouldn’t just end it all, and find true peace somewhere else, and not belong to a world that makes us see and believe that we cant see or connect with. we just accept it for that fact that some guy with a stupid hat or dress is telling us a bag of lies, and if you try to confront the lying bag he wont tell you a clue of to why he’s doing this. a preach maybe a metaphor on how to live your life, but it’s fake, it’s not real and for centuries we have been killed for having a different opinion or having denied god or not accepting another form of religion. religion is the fall of us, and if religion keeps growing like it is now. i doubt we will see another 1000 years to live.  it’s sad that the world has come down to what it is. a world of chaos and plans, and if you break that plan people panic just as the joker says in the dark knight. i am not saying i don’t believe in god but i do believe in a god and it isn’t what you would imagine to believe so i wont get into it. religion is  also made for money and mainly only for money, and nothing more. why would a religion have a collection plate? it may help pay them but this isn’t what it was supposed to be about, it was supposed to be believing in him and not about how much money we give them. their are religions that will literally kick you out of their church if you don’t give them anything to the collection plate at all. that again proves that religion is a form of propaganda and not for a person to truly accept it, and be forced to give money out to the church. my friend does have a point in their being a god, as if their was no god their wouldn’t be tree’s, water and other things to witness before you. i was having a chit chat with my friend jeff and i brought it up to him and he said. ” is the table real? is that tv real? are we real? is that water real? then said if their wasn’t a god their wouldn’t be miracles around us such as water, food and other stuff that we have to live on. he has a very good point in god, but doesn’t really prove the fact that jesus the incarnation of god was actually real, but i will agree that what earth has created for us isn’t a miracle but it still doesn’t make me want to believe in something that i can’t see,hear or touch or talk to we are just given spoken word and not any benefits to actually who he is or what he is. i don’t think i will ever relate to jesus or god or whoever else refers to him. i just don’t like being preached at to show me that their is something out their watching masturbate or something on the lines of that. i am not going against peoples beliefs but against their feelings towards god and what his supposed miracles, that are possibly just done by the body and not by the man himself. in my life i have never seen the light or a proof of something to prove to me that he is actually here touching me, holding me in his arms and expressing his deep love to me. what it comes down to is that we are god, we are created in his image, and is trying to prove to him our creation was for a cause and not for the purpose of killing our own kind for not believing in other ones beliefs or over a stupid argument. we have been proving him wrong for centuries that man is a mistake and that his trying to make us a peaceful race has come to an end. he has failed, and he must cry to himself every night for the wrong doing of creating us has done to his image. we have created our own destiny and we have chosen the path of satan if you call it that, but their is no salvation for us if we continue. this post will probably get you upset, worked up or if i was on drugs, but I’m simply expressing my opinion on what i believe in, you can give me some pointers below in the posting section, to prove to me that what i said wasn’t just for nothing. i from my views i have seen nothing but lies and emptiness.

dir en grey 07

before i was hard time into second life, i went to see an amazing jrock band, i dont think many are specifically into jrock, but it’s some of the best shit you can listen to, if you dont have these damn 14yr olds ruining it by saying their cute, all their songs rock or their lyrics are amazing is kind of sad, as i i’ve listening to some quite shit japanese bands. ok about dir en grey, they have to be one of the most weird and sadist bands out their today. they usualy deal with suicide, abortion,kids killing parents and that sort of weird shit. my first forray into this bad was with the video obscure which is demented in a lot of ways and makes manson video’s look like disney compared to him.  they had a good live show, but it got kind of weird then Kyo the leader singer of the group began to hit himself with the mic and then gradually cut his rib cage with a nail, as we say it leak a bit of blood. i was also upset that they ran out of dir en grey shirts, and no it’s not duran duran when i pronounce it diiir en grey but for some odd reason everyone seems to think i mean duran duran when it does not even recollect a duran sound in it. these guys are a metal band from japan making their american journey, only jrock fans or nerds know of their existance or the bloody youtube generation. i actually enjoyed their show, and was kind of meh at the other bands. one was fair to midland and some other band might of been the bleed. but the fans are totally mental. at one point in the concert kyo threw a bottle cap into the crowd and when it landed a bunch of teenager girls swarmed and jumped the area just for that specific item like wtf is up with these people. damit man it’s just a guy, your not gonna get any value out of it or sell it on ebay. sometimes i just dont understand fans, they seem to blow everything out of proportion and other things like that. when i go see a concert not to cheer and piss at them about how hot they are and how i would like to make your babies. it’s just music man not your personal love life, just a bunch of normal guy that like to play music, and probly love moneh and can be assholes about certain things about it. some muscians are so open that u can talk to them about anything anywhere and probly make some friend with them, i dont go screaming omg omg omg wooooow  i loooove u soooo muuuch. that is asking for trouble and supposedly a stalker. just let them be if your gonna be a whiny weirdo. i respect some of them but not all, as moneh and fame dwelves into their heads and that can be a turn off for some, as they change their good style into say new metallica.

Concert in august

well i just got back from the mayhem festival in toronto and i gotta say that it was pretty fucking good for what i saw their. some of the bands were a lot to be desired, but the ones that i cam to see were actually some of the best precense i have ever seen and it was intensely amazing. some i could care less about such as the red chord, a terrible metalcore band with 0 stage precense and other lackings things. the best hightlight of the place were my fav bands. disturbed, slipknot, machinehead, underoath and maybe walls of jericho. a lot of the concert was full of filler, and some bands that didnt belong. but the best part of that concert was loosing myself and letting myself go at the disturbed and slipknot sets. i practically lost my voice, got sore feet, bruising and a bad sun burn, but it was worth it man. the loosing my voice was funneh as i had a very raspy voice and couldnt really sound good sort of like out of a alec baldwin movie. but the shittier side of it that to get their it took me 5hrs or more just to get down to the place. i met some 2 new friends down their and one that i lost in the crowd ahahaha. i almost got into a fight with someone tho, after saying your mom. i may go to the new one next year but i dont know if i can stand the shittier bands their yush 12 hrs or more of shite metalcore bands. i love it to death but their’s only so much you can take of a guy screaming his ass off for 20 songs.

random gorezone posts.

what about debbie does dallas and tracy lords. but not her early stuff, arc would ban me if i said what kind it is. i was talking about her illegal shit. she was underage at the time. i never seen any of those but they sound hot, wink wink.so he might of burned his mind, from all the exploits of weirdness. .

arc your lucky do have seen this underground porn on this rare occasion.even streaking, and playing mr woodcock.yeah, no one like me. i guess i’m the most original poster that graced the board. thank god i’m here.oh common headbanger, i know you gots the hots for elizbeth hurley. if she did porno with jerry seinfeld, i think you would be in heaven.yeah that would be kool, hb, but what about them and b arthur showing them how to peform more realistic. or bruce campbell.arc i wont have u fucking jody moore. i want you to be fucking estelle getty.people should watch japanese samurai porn it’s insane. and i think i saw arc in a movie once, he was attacking this manitee or sometthing.i know it sounds weird but sometimes people have weird fantasies with marshmellow animals.i think porno should have more things to do with fruit. like sticking banana’s up peoples asses or some sort of eating and rubbing it on there pussy, and inserting it in there vagina.if you pressed the ban button, this board wouldn’t be the same. people would post topics about, where is deadguy, remember when dead guy started a thread on something or the classic noooo deadguy is gone. the board has no comic relief without deadguy.no i haven’t jerked off to this thread. i don’t jack off to names of porn, i just jack it to 300 pounds women. talking about porn is one thing, but jacking in a porn thread is just wrong.why do guys like to talk about porn? all it is, is a dude with a big cock that sticks his dick in a succulent vagina and shit, and she sucked it, they get jiggy and party is over, meet next stranger have an anal party and so on.porn is only good if they have good acting,good plot and some great g rated fuckin, with a lil bit of fruit.i made a porn once, it was called don’t peek inside. i saw a girl get it on with a dog once. that was pretty funny she was loving every minute of it.i was bored arc it just came to me on kazaa, i thought it was jenna.i think the best porn is when they have fat chicks that hump local roosters for pleasure. imagine what a dario argento porn would be like. it would be like a big giant cock chaseing a 18 yr old ssex slave. with the cock barly fitting in it as she explodes on penetration.hey arc you think her mother is hot looking?does anyone have nachos and pepsi or pizza and other types of food? i usually have pizza,pepsi and some sort of cheesie.porn is pretty pointless today. it’s just a 30 minute suck n fuck. and then talk then another 30 minute.peter huh wow.is he like the tin man of porn?peter is ur hero huh. why is his name peter north, is his dick facing north or somthing. he’s not that attractive and he’s full of himself. remember i can be the assmaster if i got hired.peta come here peta.you think porno would be more funny if they had elf slippers on and trotte when they fucked.yeah it could. santa would be fucking all these sexy ladies. also the elves would be doing the reindeer and the other elves. if i made a xmas porno u guys would be in it.why is porno so popular? and i don’t usually watch it unless i’m bored.actually porno is forbidden in the christian faith and in the bible.don’t you whatever me porno man. i know what you do when your shopping.the power of porn compels you.um yeah hot naked japanese college girls. or um asian argento and tadanobu asano.what’s next mutant porn.i think mothra already has both. why not mecha godzilla,king kong,giggan,zordon,alpha,lord zed and rit repulsa in one go.

 

 

hey how do u think spider man and mary jane do it huh. maybe they make it on the ceiling.yup we are totally bored. yoda and princess leiah seems very erotic since he has the force mmmm.i think porn made why artists is beter. more heart and more twisted sucking. any deep throat fans and debbie does dallas fans?ets bone the salami and pork the japanese chicks.ur naughty, but clever. you think the guys dick has sideburns and a skate ramp? also women has a big bush back then, all natural.i just want to fit in. mommy! i’m too valuble to this board to be banned.nopeporno school or maybe a porno doctor that tells u that u haven’t fucked enough and u have to do this this and this.

porno porno everywhere what do you get when u poke inside someones underpants?

yeah. call it master gio’s porno sector girls only please.thanks man maybe we could meet and have one of them pleasure parties.welcome to the candy shop i’ll show you what i got.well there weirdo’s they think your looking at it likes it’s a library. why dont you just show them your cock or something and say hey gerries catch this.your the inspiration headbanger now i can shower in peace and watch a great boring about the 30th century, wait i’m horny so forget what i just said about showering with um girls. what i ment to say was um when i see a person get it on with a lovely lady i get to see if there doing the 30 minute suck and fuck out. and wtf did i just say. oh wait i’m drunk off my ass on kaluha or however u spell um cheese. dear diary last night i was masturbating when i heard a noise coming form my parents room. so i jumped up in fear before they could see me doing it. that was a scary feeling. end log.what was i thinking man. it was totally random. if arc finds out he will kill me.i bet but me i need to get laid pretty bad. what about ginger lynn she was hot but i don’t watch porn so who am i kidding.what about the actress plenty uptop and seymore butts? also a good porn star is candy something.i just stared in a porn. it was made my philip glass.did he get too old?i don’t get why they have to do porn it’s kind of degrading to there psyche.the first link has some weird vagina’s.were u partly drunk when u wrote thie gio?ok arc i’m offically gone from this forum. see you in about 10 weeks.i never did but i could improvise some porn motions for you tho arc.um is she the one with the big vagina? where if resedes up her groin to almost her stomach.lets see some christian or catholic porn.nunsploitation? never heard of that shit. u ever made some home movies porno and sent it to playboy?even animals, fruits and vegtables?id eat pancakes off her ass.i think that the old porn is kind of odd since most of the guys dicks have sideburns. and why is it that every porno movie the fucker is circumsiced and nothing but that? it’s like a fetish and damn there big.grab your dick and double click.i dont follow porn or know much about it. i just make up shit about it.oh yeah but mine would be more nuttier. like say a large bull and a donkey.owercase why don’t you show some of ur private stash? or maybe some toight toight underwear shots of ya.oh common eric your probly really attractive and have a thing for african ladies. common show us ur thong man i’m not shy i will post one later on this month.yeah but common post your nudies or something.if i had a girl to satisfy me i wouldn’t be in this predicament. 

lower i’ll give u 20 canadian to show us ur thong pics.your not that fat eric.i used to be an fat ass man. i used to weight 311 now i’m 255. being fat is really hot nowit’s not. +i just like saying shit.i wouldn’t say that headbanger. my first post had a fat chick, a shemale and something else. so i edited it so i wouldn’t give you nightmares.the first one was hot man. the second one was just a boob.scared of the video are we?oh yes she is, i’d bone her like an animal.soon i will post my homemade porno video’s.can i be in the cast i got a nice ass.

he bust dr huh. i guess that could help tighten my chest to look super sexy. bust size only counts when giovanni’s cock is her her bum then it’s bust size. but hey i got’s me a pair of boobies too. here you go guysyeah i’m the porno clown of this board. i’m very unique. this is like the best family i have ever had on this board.arc i’m saying i have become a part of this board a whole.fetish people?

porno is made from the loins of judis. come forth my fellow porn lover and walk among the shadow of death and become one within the porn realm of hades.i saw some clown porno on that show webdreams it was weird. they always smile sadistic.what about zombie porn or power rangers type porn?i’d like to see flesh gordon again and the crazy dr wang.porn is dead and you know it.hey gio maybe we could both star in a porno call it the mateing call.then go do it man listen to the mod thedeadguy he knows all.they should outlaw bodily function porn and let arc star in for your balls only.yeah that would rock you would need a lot of girls and greek sausages. american sausages are tiny.sorry for that remark. i meant girls of all kinds and peter north.if i was thinking tripple xxx i think i would pic misty mundae,jenna,ron pearlman and keanu reeves.for some reason chloe has a shiny vagina.yeah i know u said that man but it’s cute. i guess that explains why people have so much sand in there vagina.porno is overrated because i’m never in them.ook that was creepy. don’t think i want to fuck those, the look a lil stiff. oh god i’ve killed her.what about softcore porn and dog on girl action. i was downloading some porn, and i checked to see if it was hot and it was a girl and a dog. weird shit.it said moscow dog 2006 new. and i thought it was a new hot video. and it was a dog trying to hump a blond girl on couch i saw that he almost got in.she was clearly enjoying it.it’s not like i wanted to see it. wtf is a gald?it could be a new type of sexual device. like here have a gald bag for your body. gald cling wrap.but first i expect a good galding i return.did you just say orinal and orginal? it’s original those other things seem odd. and wow jfly dick wars but with hot babes that have it with 40 guys in one sitting.giovanni should go host the porno awards.do you think the actors would give you head on stage? or the hostess?tom savini made a porno it was violent.what cant a guy dream? i’ve never had sex in my life.you deserved this guys. i’m your weirdest member.

ell that’s the only place where i can goof off.your crazy gio what if you want to get a girl and get married? are you going to say whoa man want to check out my porn? it’s like for when i’m bored n stuff, want to watch it with me.i seriously loath porn and i don’t know what i post in this thread.if i ever make a porn it will be based in space and they fuck during anti gravity.like moving violation but with real real antigravity. fly fucking. and headbanger stop posting them porno stars we can’t fuck them even if we tried.and stop with the stupid video’s on myspace. i’ve been directed to porn 5 times. no jfly porn isn’t offensive i just hate how a big dick can do suck much fucking with so much semen. semen makes me almost get grossed out. and all you see is a lady sucking a big dick as she goes mmm mmm oh yeah that’s some tasty sperm. then he sticks it in her bum and vagina and she’s fucking moaning again how is that entertaining? it’s like a fuck session for money.i want to stick my boney macaroni in her cream puff. then rub chocolate poo down her thighs.i wasn’t starting a porno fight with sick i know he’s cool. but common girls are hot and that’s why were doomed.yeah in a way but i still haven’t gotten it on with a girl.i got a song for the girls out there.i got a song for the girls out there.

 

where were you when i was fucking on your grass

where were you when you were sucking my dong last night

i want hold you, molest you, rape you not really,feel you,eat you,drink you.

you make me feel like i got you in my butt, your hand is ugly,stinky,disgusting,vile,disfigured and poopy.

bring me your breast bring it here i won’t eat your flesh anymore please i beg you i’m hungry and i need to eat you,touch you,drink you,felate you.what actress sucked the best cock? i think it would be elizabeth cuthbert and jack black.sucking dick is not a skill, the only reason they can do it so well is because she had her tonsiles removed and her tongue or they don’t got gag reflex, and i maybe bisexual.gio i’m now going to sit on you.i’m kidding.i hate porn all together it’s boring. who wants to see fucking for over 80 minutes.well there overly large,the always make annoying oh oh sounds,there openly overlarge vagina that’s usually shiny for just different. i like my women to be normal everydayers not some big boobed dumb women enjoyed fake sex.the only porn that i’ll watch is play misty for me with clint eastwood.well the only reason gio that i post here is to make you guys go wtf did you just say deadguy? 

 

i remember when i was like 15 and i rented hentai video’s at my comic book store, and that shit was amazing at the time. also i’d watch porno the old fashioned way threw cable where all you’d get was lots of lines and you could see what was going on in it. that’s how i watched woodstock 1999, then after that there was no more woodstock.what does your sister think of your obsession with porn? has she almost seen u jacking off? it happens you know.have any of you guys got off by um peeing on other peoples parents?

look at her vaginal area you can clearly see a bulge.

 

someone dig into me. is the girl from debbie does dallas still hot? i’d bone her up on the hill near my place with a banana.he best shit is the stuff you see when ur like 8 yrs old and there like whoa momma that’s some fine pussy and a nice rack of lamb,. know you’ve done it guys you probly masturbated to b and w photo’s you thought were hot but were ur hot relatives.don’t make me show u my full nude shots guys.

common guys it’s not taht scary.can i show you my naked dancing video i took lastnight?hey wait until you see the naked video i took on vaction i may post it.only if you digitize your dick.If you ever see me getting beaten by the police, put down the video camera and come help me!common answer my nudity question you porkers. what’s a good blowjob song?how dare you blast my asshole i need that to poop. thanks for the fucking constipation.hey i got a new anime hairdo oh shit it’s fire.anyone seen backdoor teens? i had it for about a day until me dad released me.any ginger lynn fans?gio stop masturbating your fucking catholic, if you continue your going to hell. i love ya buddy, but don’t get to hell.how many countries did debbie do? she has a lot of them.from debbie does dallas.

i’m going to post some gay porn movies just for you headbanger. since you put me threw emotional distress,pain and suffering and for being a pest.don’t you be ignoreing my posts dudes, i have releif.ok ok i admit it, one of my fav porno’s was where the boys arn’t and shanes world.porn is the anus of my motherfucking sphincter.i was bored arc it just came to me on kazaa, i thought it was jenna.ur naughty, but clever. you think the guys dick has sideburns and a skate ramp? also women has a big bush back then, all natural.ctually yes i will teach you. you basically put u bite down on the groin vagina area actually and just rip fast. jfly some of your comments were a bit innaproiate this is a family oriented site.yeah it is. it’s one of the main attractions on me, and i like to be the crazy whiteman. headbanger you been getting a good stash? i usually like to download it and send it to the catholics. i would call the movie to save your soul click here.i think that the old porn is kind of odd since most of the guys dicks have sideburns. and why is it that every porno movie the fucker is circumsiced and nothing but that? it’s like a fetish and damn there big.oh yeah but mine would be more nuttier. like say a large bull and a donkey.

 

 

 i think porno should have more things to do with fruit. like sticking banana’s up peoples asses or some sort of eating and rubbing it on there pussy, and inserting it in there vagina